*LOST* trying to find myself in this odd world

My deepest desire is to become known.. for what I'm not sure.. but I want to be a success at something.. ANYTHING.. and I want to be good at SOMETHING, that people will want said something from me.. (get outta the gutter if you slipped a bit.. ) I want to be a successful photographer, digital designer, furniture maker/remodeler...or SOMETHING else.. Im really not picky.. I will take anything.
I would loooooove to be the next person to accidentally make the world better by creating THE THING..
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how do I do this???? Ive got to be missing the connect gene or something.. I know I can do almost anything I set my mind to.. but to connect my desire for greatness and my ability to carry out the plan.. its like I no longer have the right kinda plug/adapter. I keep thinkin if I surround my stuff with EVERYTHING I think could be THE THING that makes it happen.. then it will.. so far all that has done is make very little room to live in the house.. and no where to park the cars in the garage.. I'm really starting to feel like I need to be plastered on the EPIC FAIL site..
I blog hop and hop and hop.. and see a billion things I too can do.. some just as good.. some better and a lot HA! I wish.. and I wonder.. how did they get over this bump in the road and just go for it and be wonderful? is it my fear of not doing it perfect that keeps me from ever trying? my fear of copying to close to the thing I'm copying? my fear of failure ? my fear of no one liking the things I make or do? the fear of SUCCEEDING?
Ive even lost all my blog peeps cuz Ive just fallin into deep, heavy, sticky, keep you down and out funk.
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HELLO TRACY!!
AHHHHHHHHH
I WANT TO BE AMAZING AT SOMETHING AND I WANT TO MAKE MONEY FOR MY FAMILY AND I WANT IT NOW!!

Boo Boo Box

Altered almond jar. This is a tad girlie but its ok.. Im the one that puts the bandages on and maybe this will keep the boys from using it so much. cuz you know.. girl stuff is GROSS

money saving tip

tid bit for the penny pincher's in all of us! 1 gal of Kool-Aid (or as we use, the sugar free mixes) will refill a 6 pk of Gatorade bottles.. the bottles are top rack dishwasher safe and the lids are fine in the silverware containers.. I know during the summer my kids drink non stop, and its the bottle experience they crave.. so REFILL! your wallet will love you!

Long time a SALE and a Collab!

Boy.. life has really been busy.. With my mother in law fighting cancer and my boys hitting puberty.. I feel like Ive been as stretched as thin as I can go.. Ive not even been able to take pictures or play with graphics.. SHEEESH!  so thank goodness my team gave me a chance to play and give you some freebies!  Here are some of the goodies from my creative co-designers!!
 

Jump on over to their blogs and grab some goodies!
Kristine - http://kristinesplace/blog
Diane - http://www.carjazidesigns.com/
Jodiann - http://www.jodianncates.com/weblog
Cate - http://www.scrapsationsofcate.blogspot.com/
and here is what Im offering!

DOWNLOAD 1
DOWNLOAD 2
I hope to get back in the swing of things soon.. Hubby just bought me a MAC.. so now I get to relearn how to use a computer too!!
   
And to celebrate NSD My store will be 50% off!!